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Name: Lee
Country: United States
State: Georgia
Birthday: 10/30/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: anime, music, art, writing.... uhhhhh I can't think of anything else
collecting swords and dragons...ok thats it i think
Expertise: So far smartass..ism psychology, computers... anime... random-OCITY,lengthy explinations, and uhhh.... other stuff too :D
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
8/15/2003
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| To whom it may concern,
I'm actually feeling happy, and I have been for the
past couple days. It's weird, ya know.. How affection can feel
completely different for one person than it has for others I have felt
it for? I recently met this guy named Caleb. I really really like him ,
and I look forward to his phone calls every waking moment. He's so
sweet, and he's going through a lot of the stuff that I have, and we
understand each other. I yearn to be with him, and I can't wait for
saturday when he's coming to see me. I want things to go well...I think
I could really fall for this guy...or I might be falling already..I
think I might be.
Things here are really crazy here, my aunt's psychological disorders
are getting worse, I hope she doesn't say anything bad to Caleb. I've
been sick recently as well, it could be because I was dancing in the
rain like a fool because I was so happy. I was rockin out to michelle
branch. He's the only reason I didn't get put on mood stablizers. I
utterly hate medicine. I'm feeling so freakishly happy. I can't help
but be a hopeful fool.
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| Yesterday I ordered a pizza from wedgies, I let Sonny call, she pissed
off the phone guy, so he gave the phone to Denny and Sonny gave the
phone to me. I said "Hello?" then I heard a voice say "Hello?" back to
me. I knew who it was immediately. "Denny!" I called out frantically.
We talked for a little bit, a very little bit, and I placed my order
and she asked me if I was gonna make her come all the way out to the
school for that one pizza, I said "yup ^^" I went outside next to the
middle school gym and waited on the steps on the little hill thing
facing the road. I knew I'd be waiting there for about 30 minutes, I
didn't care. Can you see where I'm going with this? I sat there
thinking about her, and seeing her face again. I felt it start to rain
a little bit, but it was only a few little droplets. So, yeah...the
rain lasted all of 3 seconds. I saw a silver Lexus, my heart pounded in
my chest, I knew it was her. She got a new lexus cause she got in a
wreck. I got my pizza and signed for it, then all of a sudden I'm being
hugged to tightly I could barely breath out of the fear of breaking the
hug off. We talked about things, and she wanted my shirt and was gonna
trade me for it for a wedgies shirt.Then a few people showed up cause
they saw the wedgies sign. All of a sudden the mood changes and they're
incorporated into the talking, which lasted quite a while. I threatened
her "If the next time I see you I have to order a pizza I'l....beat you
up," which in all honesty she could prolly kick my ass....I wouldn't
hit her anyway. When she left I found myself lost in thoughts and
images, all centered around her, as they still are. I should have
kissed her when I hugged her the last time before she left, I don't
think she would have objected much. I guess I'm a bit too respectful,
maybe almost formal when it comes to other's relationships. I seriously
hate that about me. And I didn't think it was possible, but she is even
more beautiful than the last time I had seen her face to face, not
across a store.
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| I got bored in drama and went over to talk to Jasmine. We talked for a
bit, then she got hungry, and that's where things started. She asked
Mrs. Hickox if she could go get something out of the vending machines
cause she was hungry, and I said "I'm going with her, cause I have no
life." We went, but the machine on our hall had pretty much nothing in
it, so we were gonna see if there were twix in the one at the math
hall. We went to the ramp and we were gonna walk over it to the other
side, but I said "Look at all those freaking short middle schoolers
O_O!" So we took a detour through the court yard and were making our
way to the door next to the library when it happned. Mr. Ernest came
running up after us, "Do you have an agenda book?" I said "No, but
Jasmine does." He then said "Is it signed," Jasmine said no, and then
he asked us where we were going. Jasmine, being quick on her brain said
"To the office." He told us to follow him, we were talking to each
other "I think we're in trouble >>" Then we went up to the ramp,
and then across it's bridge to the 2nd floor of the library and were
led into the conference room. He asked the room "What don't they have?"
They replied "...Agenda book" We were sat down with 2 or 3 others. We
were talking up like hel. Pretty soon we saw Mr. Ernest running to
catch other people, the room began to fill. Anne McMillan got pulled
into the room with us, she was called to the office, but he said she
needed a signed agenda anyway, what a dick head. Anne said her sister,
Mary, was in the office and was about to go back to college and wanted
to say bye/drop off some glue and note cards for her. Mr. Ernest told
Mary that Anne didn't have her agenda, and he brought the stuff to
Anne. Then, the funniest thing ever happened; we saw Greg and Marleena
walking across the ramp, and old Mr. Ernest came running up behind them
and theyt were locked in there with us. Greg went balistic "Do you know
who I am? I'm Greg Doughty!!!!!" he did that for a bit. It soon turned
into a game for us, he brought some people from the halls in. Then he
was closing in on some more people on the ramp, we all shout "RUN RUN!"
but it was to no avail, they were captured and brought in. Soon Kylie
and her friend were brought in, so that brought the total of kids from
Mrs. Hickox drama class up to 7. Greg whipped out his cell phone and
called Mrs. Hickox, but he had it in his lap so Ernest wouldn't notice
if he walked by, when it stopped ringing Greg yelled "MRS. HICKOX, IT'S
GREG I'M LOCKED UP IN THE CONFERENCE ROOM COME GET ME!!" He called Mrs.
Holtsclaw as well, she arrived in like 10 minutes. Mrs. Ernest came in
and I went crazy on him with laws, which is strange cause I rarely do
that. "THAT IS PROFILING, AND IT'S ILLEGAL!" I ragged on him about
detaining us against our will. Greg went nuts again. We signed a paper
to keep us from geting counted AWOL. I targetted ol' easy E with a
couple one liners "What great accomplishments you've made" and so on.
I'm an ass........ And Mrs. Miller was in the yard and I didn't know
it, the dogs were barking like mad, I didn;t go downstairs. Levi came
up and asked what that person wanted, she had a red jeep. I told him
this "OMGTHATWASMYPSYCHIATRIST I TOLD YOU SHE WAS COMING
TODAY...damn........Shit" | | |
| There are things that I always think about, no matter how much I really
don't want to, it's like I have no control over it, and there are
things....things I don't want to feel, things that hurt so much, and I
might not have to feel them, or anything else, but I don't want that
either., and there are times, when I'm alone, even when I'm surrounded
by friends and family I'm still alone....I don't know why I feel that
way, and I may never know, I just want to be happy, but that may never
happen, no matter how loud I yell, how many tears I cry, or how loud I
or how long I try to lie to myself, it will never change, and I will
never go back to the days of my childhood, never back to the days of
being happy and care-free..... Maybe one day I will feel whole again,
and be happy.........maybe | | |
| I was gonna post this saturday but I never got around to it.
Ok I went to school today and had shitloads of fun, we annoyed people testing in Mr. Blairs class XD. Anyway, we got on the bus, I sat down, Laci sat down on the seat next to me, and Ryan did the same. Laci get's angry easily, and she kicked me, and of course, being who I am, I kicked her back, it went on for a while. I swear she has anger management issues. We got there, and watched Rumors by GAC, it was sooo good, we unloaded the Uhual, blah blah blah, it was our turn and I went up to the light booth, their boared is way more sophisticated than ours, but I got to use it ^^; We needed another person for the sounds so I grabbed Amber and made her do it. It went better than I expected, we cleared the time, it was great. I went and helped clean up and pack the crap into the Uhaul. Durring the awards I met the COOLEST girl ever, she was funny, psychotic, and cute as hell, just like me...cept I'm not cute. Anyway, we talked, it was great. Daneila won best actress in the region and Jasmine got best in our group cause you can't give the best actress awards to the same people. As usual, well, not really cause this time they actually had a place, the politics in theatre suck so bad, we got 4th place out of 8, we should have gotten 2nd cause Rumors kicked ass, and over the river and through the woods was great. I jumped this teacher lady and I was like "OMGYOULOOKLIKEANGELA!" (a little later she was sitting behind me in the awards and I was going crazy cause I was hungry, and then I bothered her and pointed out that she looked like Angela) and then I went around behind her through a door and scared her and did the same thing, then I showed Angela, ti was great. We went into the lobby and I talked to people, and then I did random things. Then we went off to Olive Garden, but our reservations were for an hour later, so we went to the mall, I had no idea I could spend my money, I would've bought something. Gwinnet Place Mall is sooo cool, and we went to a pet store, and a book store and spencer's, so much fun. We went to Olive Garden but we had to wait like 30 minutes for the table to clear, and what's her name and I were talking and then she was talking to this kid and asked for a hug and he said "But I'm only 12." It was funny. Later we were singing and dancing, and people put money in a cup on the ground, funny shit. We got in, we took a while to order, I got Chicken Vino Bianco, and tried to convince Mrs. Holtsclaw to let me get a bottle of wine, she said no to everything and the cool fruit stuff in the pitcher. We ate, Levi called Derrik and we all talked to him I told him we missed his sexy ass XD, Laci said "I LOVE YOU DERRIK" Theatre people are so fucked up and funny, I'm glad I'm theatre people ^^;;;;;. What'sher name snuck away from the table, and asked for another hug, the kid gave her one, she went outside and looked at us through the window, and came back inside. We were laughing our asses off. The kid was leaving and athre a piece of papper to her, Sunny grabbed it and read it, and laughed, she got it and read it, it had a phone number, we all cracked up. Amberle said "She got some digits! WOOOO!" It was so great, she called the number, and she asked for Chris, and there was nobody who lived by that name there. I said "OOOOOO TURNED DOWN BY A 12 YEAR OLD!" and she hit me, we were all laughing. We ordered dessert, well a few people did and well all ate some of theirs, it was great. I had some banilla tea, it was Sammy's and it tasted like nerds and tea, I had regular tea. I couldn'y even finish my food. We all got to go boxes, so much fun. On the ride home Laci was so nice to me and she was fun, she was high on sugar or something it was great. Then she and Ryan went to sleep, Will called Michael back to tell scary stories. Oh yeah, Will is my hero now, cause I nearly sat on Angela by accident. Angela said "CALVIN LOVES ANGELFACE2188!" then Jasmine said "YEAH CALVIN GOT SOME DIGITS TOO, WELL EMAILS!" Then Angela said "MORE LIKE EMAILS," and then Will said "WAY TO GO CALVIN!!!! WOOOOO!" then everyone was cheering, my friends are insane, I convinced a few people at the Olive Garden that we had a day out of the Psych. Ward. Anyway, On the Bus, I moved to the front so I wouldn't fall asleep, I played with Sarah's hair, my arm started hurting and Gregg was telling stories about a panther and a cult in Arkansas, Sarah was like "Panthers can't become human!?" then she looked at me, and I said they could, she was a little scared, magic magic magic ^^;;;;; She said that it was interesting to her, at least what I do is anyway. She shook her haid and said "hair," so I continued playing with it, here's where I made her laugh she said "It feels so good when you play with it," I snickered and said the same thing in a sexy nurse voice XD, she laughed and pushed at my shoulder. I had a great time, and there's a drama christmas party on some day I can't remember when at Gregg's house and drama 2, 3, and 4 were invited, there were no drama 1 people there to find out, and we aren't inviting them. Wow I typed a lot, there was more but I'm all making people trying to talk to me wait, so I shortened it. Well goodnight. | | |
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